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Today's TUESDAY, fucked up day. 4 person set up a BCS tent juz to tear it down later at the day. SET UP for wat? for a person call CMC.. To hell with him.

Quarrel with shan last nite, bcoz of wat?
bcoz she told me today can't meet up bcoz her grandma is coming to singapore.
Then i reply her ok.
Then she say i like bo hiew like tat.
THEN i reply i hiew also no use, itz bcoz i dun have a choice also.
THEN she self assume i dun wanna talk to her n start PMSing the whole day, when i was busy at camp for the rest of the day.

I finally SNAPPED n call n scold her at nite. She say she doesn't wan me to make overseas call juz to scold her, so i juz go n slp lo. THEN SHE PMS FURTHER.

Seriously, i think shan deserve the scoldin im gonna give her. She always assume things n put words into my mouth. I can't pacify u everytime, Grow up n understand tat

Today ops duty at SMM, need to stay over... Shan came down to camp me accompany me for dinner. Somemore she bought something for me when she's at Queensway when accompanying sherly for her opt. Was very delighted abt it, knows she loves me alot, n i love her alot too.

Tat's the happy part.

SUAY part is i lost the shirt she bought, n we both don't remember where we misplace it. When i went back to the coffeeshop where we had our dinner, the uncle whose behaving quite supiciously proclaims i took the bag with me when i went off (the younger chap gave him away initially). Curses to him! hope he or whoever he gave the shirt to fucking rots when he/she wears my shirt!

Cliff came to took his pink IC today, so jealous n envy. When is it ever my turn to see my "long lost friend". Day passes by n minutes runs down, but the date of my release still seems so fucking far away. Kinda pissed off by tat.

Baby girl, im so sorry to lose the shirt ya. Damn the bloody bastard who took it. We will go buy another set ok?

Baby,
Btw, it feels so fortunate to be able to wake up in the morning and see u lying beside me. Thou the bed is quite crampy, things will go for the better ya.

Time to sleep n time to be the stoner of the day.

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Met Sherly (shan's best friend) with shan at cine today. Catch the Show PINK PANTHER at around 5.30 pm, find it quite entertaining ya.

After the show, went down to MS to meet han for dinner at the FC ya. Sherly went home at this time. Quite a mood spoiler. Talk abt the gay show BrokeBack Mountain, han n me had a gd laugh abt it, n agrees we wun SEE the movie no matter wat. Proceed to Meet Kel N Ed after the dinner.

Went to Fisherman Village at Pasir ris last nite with Han, Ben, Kel, Ed & Shan Last nite. The atmosphere is great, weather is fine (windy). Drank a Couple of Beer with them. Enjoyable nite.

I know why im so angry over.
Waited up the whole nite for her, while she's clubbing away.
Came to my house at around 4 am.
She shld know tat im workin on the followin day.
Give me a reason, saying tat she can't leave becoz they go as a grp.
Din even bother to apologise.
Went off to camp much earlier then usual, as i find it no point to sleep n wanted her to get some rest.
Now she don't even bother abt smsing me abt whether she's home or not, maybe she's sleepin maybe she's not.
Planned to go out with her tonite, but now, im too tired to go out.
Tomorrow has Muster Parade, a stupid stunt tat cheebye lim last minute put up.
Which means i can't take off on friday.
Things r really going in the wrong way for me today.
I hate the feelin, pissed off abt it.


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Spend my whole wkend at chalet organized by Hancheng, Ben, Jj n etc. It was fun through out though i had a small tiff with shan at friday.
Taught shan abit of mahjong, sorry if im being a harsh teacher. But tat's juz the way i am. Sorry.
Play abit of Xbox n PS2 which han brought.

Despite being in the chalet, me shan han n james still went dbl O on sat nite.
It was a rush n fun clubbin experience.
Due to the fact we reach at 12midnite n need to go back chalet at 3. The Following R a few Stunts n things we or i pull off n mention:

1. I cut the long queue coz i know the doorBiatch personally.
2. I had 2 shots of waterfall once i step in the club.
3. James DRINK to his fill at the last hr of clubbin. N got very fuckin drunk
4. Lian got DRUNK again.
5. Sorry dear, i left u alone a few times at the table. very sorry.
6. i got my usual motion sickness n puke.

oh ya, i met jackie at the club also (we did jio each other to go). N thanks for the drinks ya~

Monday

shan Bought W900i for me this day, think i/she got scam, dun wanna mention it.. haiz.. nvm..

Tuesday V.day

Sorry baby, din spend this day with u. But i truly understand n agrees wat kelvin mention in his blog. V day shld be celebrated on the rest of the 364 days but not this day, i know u understand n agree to it too. But im still feelin kinda sorry if today really mean something to u ya. Love u lots ya

What do u do when u know ur gf can't find a safe haven in u?
What do i do when she said im juz pressurizing her?
What shld i do whenever i feel this tired feelin inside of me?
What would i do when the future with her is so uncertain?
What could i do when she dunno how much i love her after all this time?


I shld juz give it all up, I din wan to control you, nvr meant to control you. You nvr understand how i feel. Since your so tensed up n unhappy being with me. i guess it's time for u to find ur safe haven n someone who u can be at ease at.

I guess im not the one.

Wednesday 080206

Trip at Zoo for Unit day was boring. Only interesting part is Muscular white tiger and Gigantic Crocodile. Their SIZE kinda freak me out.
Meet Shan after zoo at her house, spend some time with her niece, then move out to marina sq.

Had sakae for dinner at marina sq. Had me n han usual Value Meal (Gyoza & Fried Tofu + Tamako Maki). Soft shell Crab is confirmed not my cup of tea.

Went to party world with Shan, Han and Feelin to Party World in Cuppage at 2100 nite. Itz quite a fun night, sing alot of songs till my voice goes haywired. Though i was not a gd singer compared to shan's x bf, but i tried my best ok!! Was fun watchin feelin pissing off han by pesterin him to sing. lol. Shan did her usual performance at the later part of the session, she still can sing as marvelous as b4.

Thursday 090206

Spend my whole day at home with Shan as i was sick. Watch a bit of Wubai's concert and find it enjoyable. Will finish the whole 2 dvd some other day.

Today 100206

Shan's big day. Hope she will pass ya. Dun wan her to go back TW ya. Muz be confident. Anyway, don't worry too much. I'll be here ya. Sorry i can't go pick u up at the school.

Tomolo & the day after n after ??????

Unknown.


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Anyone whose lookin at this blog.. got take a look at this webby.. the song is very nice... link to us when we r at secondary sec..
Title : 一生绝望
http://www.mediacorpraintree.com/instoo/main_instoo.htm

the lyrics is at

http://www.inotstupid.com.sg/inotstupid2/

I, me, myself and anthony went to airport to fetch shan today.

Items Shan Bought:
Johnny Walker Red Label for me~ YeaH~~~ .
the Wu bai's Concert MTV for my mum (which is hard to get in singapore).
Iron EGGS for our DEAR MR LOOK HOR SING.

Had lunch n movie "fun with dick n jane" with her. quite a boring show for me, but she finds it kinda entertaining (as long as she likes it can le). Lunch was a total rip off!! din notice b4 tat mos burger is such a rip off... lolz.. one upsized set meal plus 1 extra veg burger can hit S$12 plus plus, fuckin scary man... Tomolo is Zoo day at unit.. damn boring.. hope it ends real soon.

She wanted to change her phone, but wants me to change also, or else she's not changing. Hmmm.. wat to do leh... Both dun change.. lolz..

I still need recommendations for V.day cum 1yr anni. present, any intro??


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Borin day at camp. So decided to get a new skin for this new blogspot. well.. the theme for this skin is "black black heart" by david usher. Shan n me likes this song alot (she prefer the chinese version i guess). im learning how to edit the blog as i goes ya, muz revise on my C++ programmin.. if it helps in aniway. ORD date is 3 mnths from now, muz start plannin on gettin the job i desired le. Shan is comin back tomolo, Unit havin FAMILY DAY at zoological gardens at wednesday n there's a chalet (which i dunno whether im invited or not) at sat.

Went to dbl o with han last sat. Whole table full of pple(20+?). With most of them guys, in fact, all of them r guyz. lolz.

Status Report:
Han was not at the table most of the time.
i was dancing with James all of the time.
Tiong was high all of the time.
Lian was sleepin majority of the time.
Jenny was taking care of lian ALL of the time

And all the guyz are DRINKING all of the Time.
Hmmm.. i think that's all for now. Seeya


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Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.I
've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

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