Unseen, Unknown, Unidentified

2008-08-13T10:23:00.001+08:00

(不要拿熱屁股去貼人家的冷臉) ??

but i tot is the other way round?

other way round means..

ur face on my butt

haaaaaaa

aloha since 8 mnths

2008-05-15T09:29:00.002+08:00

8 months since i have updated.

as promised, here comes my update. haaa..

been havin a great life now, since "rambutan" is in my life.

she's been helping me to balance my relationship with my family.

i lub u la!

am jobless now, need to look for a job.

ya.

updates :-

---------------------------
have a great gf.
got my license.
rearing a puppy shih tzu.
am jobless.
going tw this wkend.
planning to go to kaplan uni.
---------------------------

that's all i guess.

ciaoz and i love u baby! =)

faces

2007-09-03T21:55:00.001+08:00

^_^

-_-

T-T

~>.<~

030907

2007-09-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

=)

i think i messed a couple of things up...
i think i know what is being alone means...
i think im a different man from before...
i think i can face tomorrow with a new face...
i think i would be better...
i think i need a you to appear in my life...
i think i feel what it is to be alone...
i think i need more time in this world...
i think i ...
i think...
i...
...
..
.

=(

hm..

2007-09-02T14:18:00.000+08:00

hm.. been a while since i last blog..
updates:-
work
work
work
drink
slp
slp

that's all ba...

if i can't have what i want..
at least let me want what i have..

things are less complicated if we less complicate it..

when sun sets on this side of the world..
at least its rising on the other side..

永远的恋人

2007-07-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

这些话只说一次
我真心让你走
那双更温柔的手
将来你要好好的握
既然走他的路
不要再等谁回头
我的祝福就这么多
从今后若还能相逢
请安静从身边走过
你只要低头
别叫住我
给我个背影就够
我忍著痛和你挥手
不答应你任何要求

因为对你有爱
就不能成为朋友

你要为我幸福地活著
全心全意爱爱你的人
只有你快乐
我才有我的人生

这些话只说一次
我真心让你走
那双更温柔的手
将来你要好好的握
既然走他的路
不要再等谁回头
我的祝福就这么多
从今后若还能相逢
请安静从身边走过
你只要低头
别叫住我
给我个背影就够
我忍著痛和你挥手
不答应你任何要求
因为对你有爱
就不能成为朋友
你要为我幸福地活著
全心全意爱爱你的人
只有你快乐
我才有我的人生
你要为我幸福地活著
全心全意爱爱你的人
只有你快乐
我才有我的人生
只有你快乐
我才有我的人生
只有你快乐
我才有我的人生

痛

2007-07-20T00:21:00.000+08:00

我很想你。。。

能回来吗？

120707

2007-07-12T20:19:00.001+08:00

i am at the office while im writing this.
life's still goin on with me.
got nothin much to say recently.
only got work that weighs my mind.
hmmm...
dun understand alot of things.
maybe.
just maybe.

im better off alone.

im hungry. i need dinner.
hmmm..

im don't understand
really don't..

Some times

2007-07-04T15:07:00.001+08:00

sometimes things won't go your way, life is a mess, everything is broken and battered, fustration is all you feel.

There's no-one to make you feel better.

sometimes you feel like everything doesn't worth it anymore, things are not what they seems.

There's nothing you want.

sometimes it feels like your standing alone in the pouring rain, drenched, shivering in the freezing cold.

There's no one to hug.

sometimes there is a hole inside your chest so large that it hurts, nothin can fill it, no time can heal.

There's nothing you can do about it.

i hate it when these sometimes happens.

My life's a bore, entertained by loneliness.

puke

2007-07-01T15:06:00.001+08:00

yeah... merlion this mornin... haa... i swear this is e last time i ever puke!!!

damned..

haaaaa.....

我以为 - 李圣杰

2007-06-30T14:15:00.000+08:00

我以为 - 李圣杰

痛是什麽感觉
是想呐喊却无言
心被你一片一片
撕下还不肯破裂

是谁让你转变
不再留恋我的体贴
你用背叛告别从前
我只想对你更好不埋怨

我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲
熬过宽容的疲惫
幸福会给我抚慰
心疼你的泪水
原谅你的不对

只求交心
不苛求完美

我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲
你会让我不后悔
这样把你宝贝

但你却教会我懂爱你可悲
爱不在了做什麽都枉费

July

2007-06-29T00:54:00.000+08:00

july is here finally..
juz paid one of my bills..
haa..
muz buy mass gainer no matter wat..
oh ya.. driving lessons also..

same story..
somehow i feel tat my pay is gone even before it came.. haaaaa

im someone from the past.

270607

2007-06-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

ya.. promoted.. but there's no one who can really share my joy..

wat's for promotion then?

230607 @ 3:38AM

2007-06-23T03:38:00.000+08:00

I found myself sayin i want you to come in thru that glass-door again and nvr let you leave again.

but..

i knew it would nvr happen.

mundane day

2007-06-17T22:21:00.001+08:00

10.21pm.
and im infront of the com, listening to 3 songs repeatly, smoking and drinking johnny walker red label + ginger beer.

ha.

life's boring.

hmm..
can't wait for july to be here.

i hate it when there's so much bills to pay off.

fustrated.
only know to nag. also cannot provide with any help.
watever.
screw it.

不顾一切的爱

2007-06-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. a song i came to like very much.
Too bad i can't be like in e lyrics.

李圣杰--不顾一切的爱

当你边飞边流下泪滴
我不认为谁变了心
你不过是累了去旅行
而我是家永远会等你

听说你的爱碰上雨季
又湿又冷生了一场病
心疼的我想给你暖意
倔强的你不让我走近

月光在你眼里
你说你没资格让我呵护疼惜
就算我真能抛弃一切
你又怎么去战胜自己

不顾一切的爱才算是爱
从来没有感慨一路走来
不记得悲哀只记得愉快
总想为你实现你的期待

不顾一切的爱无可取代
所受的伤害都像是告白
我不走开等你随时再回来

wootz

2007-06-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

another day in work.
haa.

Hmmm... nothin much to say.. so lets juz list out wat i wanna do for the nxt mnth.

Buy mass gainer
Take car lesson
pay overdue bills
gym regime

tat's all i guess..

life is still stagnant for me atm.

haaa...

Sick

2007-06-12T18:26:00.000+08:00

today i have been a good boy...
stayed at home whole day..
i think its the first time since 2 mnths..
haaaa...

i need to smoke..

blahzz...

Sometimes i disbelieve what i didn't know.

dead

2007-06-11T12:26:00.001+08:00

this is the first time i feel tat im so near to dying. haaa... i think im dying soon.. haa.. damned.. it hurts

110607

2007-06-11T12:03:00.000+08:00

this is the first time i feel tat im so near to dying. haaa... i think im dying soon.. haa.. damned.. it hurts

不屑纪念

2007-06-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

十月十八我生日这一天

蜡烛熄灭后浮现你的脸

你说祝我生日快乐

但还有话挂在嘴边

你说你身边多了一个他

之后伤人的话你不想讲

你说你会怀念或纪念

谢谢你我该说声感谢

我不屑纪念这一天我们分别

我不屑怀念你的嘴喊着抱歉

我后来发现你的侧脸

只是我脑子里面的一点残缺

一点残缺

但还有话你挂在嘴边

我不屑怀念你的脸欲止又言

忘了说抱歉的是我才对

Busy Life?

2007-06-07T10:04:00.000+08:00

Been a very long while since i last blog. My life is not exactly a bliss, but also not in a bloody mess in a way.

Ok. Updates on me recently. Well, i have been spending alot of time at work, and also rage.
Know a couple of new friends and of coz drinkin kakis.

haaaa...

Life's stagnant at a moment now.

Am not exactly lookin forward to relationship
i can't even love myself how to take care of others.
haaaa....

this mnth is a tough month.

lookin forward to nxt mnth ba...

haaa...

=)

眼底星空

2007-05-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

你好喜欢看我眼睛
你说是宇宙的缩影
只要没有分离
天气晴能看见星星
我努力爱你宠你调整自己
我是邻居还是伴侣
时间带来残忍结局
在爱情的隔壁住友情
界线太锐利
对不起就一刀切开所有亲密

眼底星空
流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走
转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊
男人流泪比流血加倍心痛

眼底星空
流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求
愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞
谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

用三年去维系感情
用三秒钟结束关系
剩回忆能回去能温习能把你抱紧
就算爱烧成灰烬扬起变乌云

谢谢他给你给爱另一个星空

75

2007-03-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

no. 75.
Last blog entry ever dedicated here.

Don't give reasons just becoz you found someone new.

Have fun.

HahAHahAHahaAHahahAHhahaHAahaAHaAHAHahAHahaa..

背叛

2007-03-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

雨

不停落下来

花

怎么都不开

尽管我细心灌溉

你说不爱就不爱

我一个人

欣赏悲哀

爱

只剩下无奈

我

一直不愿再去猜

钢琴上黑键之间

永远都夹着空白

缺了一块

就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何

say goodbye

你比我清楚还要我说明白

爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢

我用背叛自己

完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句

say goodbye

当作最后一次对你的溺爱

冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管

只要你能愉快

心

有一句感慨

我

还能够跟谁对白

在你关上门之前

替我再回头看看

那些片段

还在不在

紧紧相依的心如何

say goodbye

你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句

say goodbye

当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

2007-03-20T10:57:00.000+08:00

珊。我讨厌下雨。而这个世界却会下雨。一旦妳心情不稳定时，天空就会乌云密布。一旦妳悲伤难过，就变得很容易下雨。我最受不了这一点。我们都很了解。。这种在孤独的世界被雨淋的可怕感觉。为了不让雨再下。我会陪着妳。所以。。不要伤心难过。。如果你肯相信我。我不会让这世界下任何一场雨。要活的开心。。为妳。。为我。。

我还是了解。。这种在孤独的世界被雨淋的可怕感觉。

爱

2007-03-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

我终于了解甚么是爱

痛过才懂

Replica Nitemares

2007-03-19T11:24:00.000+08:00

now then i realised how much in love with u i am.
3 replica of nitemares.
showin u found someone else.
i guess deep down.
i really don't want u to find someone else.
but.
you need to find someone else.
when u do.
i will realise u r not so deep as u said u are.
and i might feel more better then now.
somehow.
i hope the nitemare will be true.
so i won't have to guess anymore.

妳一定要幸福。
比跟我幸福。

Confession of a sinner

2007-03-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

i will have nitemare again tonite

i need to confess something

i still love you alot

really do

but i can't see the future

sorry for hurting you so much

baby

sorry

goodbye

forever

一顆蘋果

2007-03-17T14:10:00.001+08:00

經過了漫長的等候　夢想是夢想　我還是一個我

那時間忘記挽留　最美時候　不經意匆匆的放過

曾經想擁抱的彩虹　盛開的花朵　那純真的笑容

突然有風吹過　那一轉眼　只剩我

我不懂　人世間的那些愁　他為什麼要纏著我

到底這會是誰的錯　還是我不放手

喔　人世間的那些愁　這世界給我的幽默

這是不是要告訴我　潮起終究潮落

總要有人來陪我　嚥下苦果

喔　再嚐一點美夢

要等你先開口　那冬天才會走

有些人經過我身旁　住在我腦中　在我心裡鑽洞

有些人變成相片　堆在角落　灰塵像雪一般冰凍

時間如果可以倒流　我想我還是會

卯起來蹉跎　反正就這樣吧

我知道我　努力過　

我想到　遙遠遙遠的以後

會不會有人知道我　在這個寂寞的星球　曾這樣的活過

喔　遙遠遙遠的以後　天長和地久的盡頭

應該沒有人能搶走　我永遠的感動

總要有一首我的歌　大聲唱過

喔　再看天地遼闊　活著不多不少　幸福剛好夠用

活著其實很好　再吃一顆蘋果

永遠的永遠

2007-03-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

我　

昨眠的夢　

小漢的我　

熟悉的所在　

夢　

猶原是夢什麼時陣　

我卻這大棕　

為什麼

　心內的感覺

　鼻頭在酸澀我想說

　我已經

　是漂泊的人

　不管按怎過按怎變按怎的人

永遠的永遠我是彼個人

　愛過的一切

　我攏不甘放

　不管天涯海角

　不管按怎笑按怎哭按怎眠夢

　永遠的永遠我是彼個人只要你一句話

　我就敢搥胸膛

　是不是你會等我

　阮愛的人

　故鄉的人

昨

　花朵的紅

　一聲變作

　反白的頭髮

　啊

　爸媽疼痛

　攏無代念阮不是故意

　只因為

　厝內的門窗

　關不住美夢我想說

　我打拼

　一定有那天

Blues

2007-02-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

Am feeling the blues.

Felt like givin up.

Left me without askin whether shld or not.

Am nothin but a good-for-nothin.

U found the one who will mend ur bruises.

U found one tat will fetch u.

Don't ever bother to think how i feel ever again.

Pls..

Leave me alone

Settin of one side.

2007-01-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

It might be sunset for others.

But then, look at the bright side,

At least it's the sun rise at the other side of the globe.

So...

Pray hard for the sun to set on the other side.

And it will be all sunny and bright again for your side.

Scenario 3 might just happen.

haaaaa..

Wateva..

Pass me that steak will ya..

Bon Voyage

2007-01-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

Might belonged to a fleet once.

But now am alone.

Maybe left to voyage alone, but most prob decided to venture out alone.

Sink or drift.

Most likely a ghost ship.

But nvr with a treasure inside.

Tat's just so me.

Watever.

2007-01-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

Played some guitar.

Had a virtual tennis match.

Learned how some things work.

Maybe im juz like the above.

A Zebra...

Among Steeds..

So a Zebra, should just be himself.

Strips or not..

Nvr a steed..

Back to work again.

Lost.

2007-01-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

I juz don't know to turn left or right at the end of road from here.

Or should i just do a U-turn?

Did i do wrong?

Question with no answer to.

I wanna see a future to.

17"

2007-01-13T13:45:00.000+08:00

BIG!

n i named it..

BIGGIE!

Game's on!

2007-01-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

Desk top on e way.
Brain on a long annual leave.

Waiting for celebration.
Hiakz

Need a tan.
Swim?

Wrong somewhere

2007-01-11T11:46:00.000+08:00

Zeus~!
Stop me from ROTTING!
At least.. Stop me from feelin PAIN!

Is it me.
or everyone else.
feels something is not rite somewhere.

women

2007-01-10T09:46:00.000+08:00

Getting to grips with a woman’s ire By Jeremy Au Yong - Dec 18, 2006
The Straits Times

HAVE always thought that the reason men get into so much trouble with women is that they (men) are insensitive clods.

That’s why – in any given relationship – the man is forever apologising to the woman for some digression or other.

While the woman – for some reason – never seems to do anything wrong. They don’t even break wind.

Recently, I began to question this long-held notion. I thought: “Sure guys can be thoughtless fools, but they can’t be wrong all the time.

“Could it be, just maybe, men aren’t always to blame? Maybe women are just making a meal out it – like sissy footballer Didier Drogba.”

I wondered if the modern woman was exploiting men’s “insensitive” reputation and then using anger and a remarkable ability to cry on demand as a way to gain relationship leverage.

One night out with the boys – after about five to seven beers – I decided the answer was “Yes”.

What ultimately swayed my decision were the stories my friends told of their run-ins with their girlfriends.

JT told of the time he was hit by a girlfriend’s anger tsunami because – this is true – he didn’t talk to her enough at a dinner party.

What’s interesting is that many of the other guys were at this same party and mainly chatted among ourselves while the girls engaged in their girl-talk. No one – evidently not even JT – noticed anything amiss.

That is until he went home and she gave him the dreaded silent treatment. His story led me to a few observations about the nature of female anger.

Observation 1: Women would rather get angry with their men than get what they want.
If there is a window of opportunity to get what they want, a woman will wait until it closes so that she can get really angry with a man and he cannot do anything about it.

JT’s girlfriend could have easily asked him to give her some attention at the party. That’s what a guy would do. But she chose to wait until it was over so that she could get angry with him.

Observation 2: Women often commit the same crime as men but don’t get in trouble for it.
Like I pointed out to JT, his girlfriend didn’t talk to him either. It takes two to not carry out a conversation.

Observation 3: A man will not always know what he did to make a woman angry.
Women are aware of this and often entertain themselves by making men squirm as
they are made to guess what their crime is.

Even on the off-chance men get it right, women will never admit it.

Girl: Do you even know why I’m so angry with you?
Me: Because I made you wait at the bus stop for two hours in the pouring rain
and instead went to play computer games?
Girl: No, it’s about Respect.

Mike and Chris also had to endure such engaging conversations.

Mike was essentially done in by being himself. You see, he can be rather indecisive. He has always been like that. He tends to hem and haw when placed in a position to make a decision anything more complex than which floor he wants the lift to stop on.

His girlfriend had happily accepted this trait for three years when, all of a sudden – while trying to choose a pair of socks – she got all moody on him. Chris’ case was even more surprising. We have always regarded him as the perfect boyfriend. He is attentive, charming and romantic to the extent of leaving his girlfriend little impromptu love notes written on cute little cards with teddy bears on them.

Yet, even he is not immune to the wrath of the modern woman. Although, his girlfriend actually had to go to some trouble to get angry with him.

In discussing how they should celebrate Valentine’s Day, she suggested they do “nothing” as it was a “commercial, heartless affair, created by executives”.

So Chris happily let Valentine’s Day pass without special attention.

As you experienced boyfriends already know, his girlfriend flew into a blinding
rage: “How dare he take me seriously! He doesn’t care about me!”

Which leads me to...

Observation 4: A woman is capable of getting angry at nearly anything.

Observation 5: If for some reason a woman cannot find anything to get angry with, she will devise one.

Looking at it together, I am forced to conclude that women secretly don’t mind a lot of the stuff we do. They must just enjoy the power trip they get from being angry.

So what’s a poor guy to do?

Ignoring it is possible if you don’t mind dying alone.

I say, play them at their own game. Next time she does something that could, in theory, upset you – cry.

This story was first published in The Straits Times on Dec 18, 2006.

PainZ

2007-01-09T12:28:00.000+08:00

I wonder..
does it hurt inside more?
or up there?

Pain is there to remind me im still alive.

PAiN

2007-01-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

I counted 5 areas of injury.

Know what's good about pain?
it lets you know your alive.

2007

2007-01-03T16:10:00.000+08:00

1st post for 2007

roller - blade
ice - skate
Gain weight
Learn Driving
Sun tan

---------

new desktop
new watch
new style

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Go Sentosa
Go thailand
Go Taiwan
Go Malaysia

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same old brand new me

xmas comin

2006-12-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

Feelin bored.
Feelin agitated.

Still feels like a bum.
Good-for-nothin.

Sickening Life.
Sickening me.

Wat to Do
Wat not to Do

Fuck it.

2006-11-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

don't let me catch u doing those things.
don't let me see those talks u have with other pple.
don't let me guess whether u r doin those things.

dont.
dont.
dont.

if tat's the way u wan
kindly walk away

GF.

2006-11-25T12:57:00.001+08:00

u told me that your "bro-in-law" is critisium to u.
i ask you to move to my house.

u always say that at my house cannot use internet.
i found a chance to buy a com for us.

in order to give us a better life for the future.
im workin OT everyday.

i owe pple money.
i wan to pay off debts.

now.
my fault im not accompanyin you.
askin u to move to my house is also wrong.
now i caused u to have a sour relationship with your family.
now.
im the problem.
i cause u ur family in singapore.

why not this way.

you move back to your house.
re-build ur relationship with your "family".

i work OT,
repay my debts.

i realised its my fault.
i shld not have offer u to stay at my house.
my fault alone.

GF.

2006-11-25T12:57:00.000+08:00

2006-11-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

Yeah...
It's my life...
My own words
I guess...

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for
?Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her

But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more,
"Daddy you're lying"You always say that, you always say this is the last time"
But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it"
Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom doorIt's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?"
I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad"
And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin"
I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait,
"it's too late Dad, you made the choice"
Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will.
You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back....

141106

2006-11-15T10:32:00.000+08:00

Another day of work
another day won't work

No more tokens of life.
Living days of no life.

Laws of Attraction

2006-10-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

Good-to-be-Evil
Good-vs-Evil

Complications of life.
Things took to be granted.
Truth?
Life is supposed to be for granted.
Laws of reality.
Parameters that mark you. You.
Break e constraint.
Live life to fullest.
Don't think of what you have what you want.
Believe you have it.

Pulses from head.
Draws things near.
EMP.
Produceable by human.

Just Do It.
Complications doesn't works.
It makes things un-work.

枯萎

2006-10-10T16:57:00.000+08:00

有一个感觉。。

在慢慢的枯萎中。。

我需要宝宝。。

countdown [1 -> 0]

2006-09-25T14:51:00.000+08:00

Monday

i pass...

Tuesday

COMING!

OMG.. My baby's comin back...

I want go airport fetch her...

Can she wait for me?

Coz i workin Halfday.

。。

终于可以再看到妳的微笑了。。。
我要再拥抱妳。。
我们不要再分离了好吗？

斩月。说过的话

2006-09-22T12:32:00.000+08:00

珊。

我讨厌下雨。
而这个世界却会下雨。

一旦妳心情不稳定时，
天空就会乌云密布。

一旦妳悲伤难过，
就变得很容易下雨。

我最受不了这一点。

我们都很了解。。
这种在孤独的世界被雨淋的可怕感觉。

为了不让雨再下。
我会陪着妳。

所以。。不要伤心难过。。

如果你肯相信我。
我不会让这世界下任何一场雨。

要活的开心。。

为妳。。

为我。。

hybrid theory

2006-09-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

Im a Hybrid.
Mixture of man/woman
can be as tempermental as a woman havin her pms
can be as chaotic as a man full flag anger

sentimental at times.
can't choose to ignore e imbued woman sixth sense.
totally know y my baby is angry abt.
but ego forces me to not be understanding abt it.
im totally self destructive.
dunno how to be myself
dunno who is me

I camoflage myself in crowds.
Flyin in e same feathers.
Changes my feathers colors when i change crowds.

Im nvr where im supposed to be.
I dunno wat was my actual feather color.

i do things my way.
dun really care what others think.
Makes pple think im wat they wan me to be.
dun have much friends
or rather
dun keep much contacts with friends

Spend time alone recently
tryin to understand wat i wants n am
wat i wants now is baby to come back
wat i am i juz a hybrid.

Things r not the way they used to be.
Kelvin is rite.
Older you gets, lonelier u r.
I stick with it.
N live with it.

Im a fucked up Hybrid

给宝宝

2006-09-11T16:26:00.000+08:00

歌曲：好不好(will you)
歌手：五月天专辑：人生海海

不知是对或是不对
不知是好或是不好
不知你甘会笑阮憨
夏天西北雨的下午
想你不知影你在哪

真希望看到你的笑容
你的温暖充满着阮孤单的心脏
我不能继续再等待
想要对你说
乎你想乎你猜
是谁人整眠烦恼

烦恼着
无情的风
无情的雨
阻碍咱的路
甲你疼
甲你惜
甲你捧在我双手中
我一生唯一的希望
要给你快乐
好或不好

日子有甜也有艰苦
有你有我互相照顾
想要听你心内的感想
亲爱你甘有听阮讲
亲爱到底是好不好
甘讲你惊阮没信用
还是你阁有苦衷

2006-09-08T10:38:00.000+08:00

Pple dun understand me
Dunno SHIT tat im going thru
Dunno wat am i up against everyday
Dunno who i am actually
Dunno im havin this sick feelin of livin every single mornin i wake up
Dunno im spittin blood more than saliva
Dunno how much i tried to put in to something

YA ACTUALLY IM MAKIN IT UP
IM HAVING A GOD DAMNED GOOD LIFE
I HATE EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD INCLUDIN MYSELF
N I ENJOY HATING THINGS

so be a doll n accept it

im sick n tired of tryin to make pple understand.
So
wateva

2006-09-08T09:45:00.000+08:00

YES SIR YES SIR
ok got the message.
YA COME ON. MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A COMPLETE IDIOT.
i got wat ur tryin to put across clearly.
i know. im a joke.
But i will not entertain anymore.
Fine.
Sorry my work life sux
Sorry my temper sux
But too bad.
I wun n can't change anything.
Can't live with it.
Leave.
Can't deal with it.
Leave.

Its my fault ur lookin so pathetic.
Im not givin u any happiness.
Yes ur rite.

I did not do anything tat will hurt you last nite.
U dun believe it.
Fine.
Wateva.
Show e whole world wat kind of person i am.
IM COOL WITH IT.
I KNOW IM A SCREWED UP BASTARD OK?
I KNOW UR TOO GOOD FOR ME OK?
I KNOW IM MAKING YOUR LIFE VERY BITTER OK?
I KNOW IM TAKIN THIS OPPOTUNITY TO BREAK UP SINCE UR NOT IN SINGAPORE OK?
UR SO DAMN RIGHT

Awful START

2006-09-07T12:36:00.000+08:00

13 days to go
Awful Start
Down with flu
Sleazy work
wat to do tonite
dunno how
most likely OT
Hiakz Hiakz
Did someone changed?
Somehow pple dun seems to understand anymore
Has i changed?
i also cannot differentiate.
Someone tell me.
Give me answers.
im complicated.
im discapitated.
im lost.
Guide me.
Understand me.

My Baby Beacon is overseas
13 days to go
Awful start.
Complicated life.
More complicated Character.
Im complex.
So is friendship.
Maybe im complicating a already complex thing.
hiakz hiakz

Baby come back soon.
But i still hope you will enjoy urself there.
Must enjoy urself there k.
Coz i know u wun enjoy much when ur with me.
Love you much as u love me.

2006-09-04T10:59:00.000+08:00

Sat. Concert is FUN!

here's some pointers on wat to do n bring:

EAR PLUGS!!!
TISSUE PAPER!!! (in case u can't find where to buy a earplug)
Cover ur EARS!!!
BRING UR PAPA N MAMA TAT JUZ QUARRELLED (or looks like they did)
ACT LIKE THE ARTISTE IS A TOTAL IDIOT BY PROVIDING WITH A I-DUN-CARE-WAT-UR-DOING-FACE!!!

here's things u shld nvr do:

FOR FUCK SAKE!! DUN EVER STAND UP!! MIGHT GET SHOOT!!
DUN GET HIGH!! WILL GET LOCKED UP IN JAIL SUSPECT OF POSSESSION OF DRUGS!!!

those are things i learnt from e concert i went to.

haaa.....

oh ya.. i dun see a thing infront.. PSI too high eh...

WwwEeee whiners

2006-08-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

2010 hrs
im still in office.
commentin abt tender doc.
29 days
im still as broke.
but still manage to hold till my pay comes.
08 months
im still as sick.
like the second month i quit smoking
2006 years
im still as lost.
dunno wat to believe in.

There's a whiner in the office.
That i really LOATHE.
There's a girl in singapore.
Who i really love.
There's a friend out there.
Which i really trusted.
There's my family in my house.
Where i need to look out for.

Pple cried due to uncertainty.
Pple whine due to incompetence.
Pple badmouthed due to lack of self-security.

Times changes.
I changes.
Whose with me.
Stand by me.
But when i turns around.
My shadow is all i found.

Pathetic. But True.
Truth is always so Pathetic.
Nothing glamous.
Nothing shameful.
Pathetic is not shameful.
Self-pity is shameful.

Day infinite

2006-08-24T10:10:00.000+08:00

Another day of sloggin.
Ha
Work is fun.
But 1 particular guy in team sucks.
HA!
Whiner
Loser.
Shit!

Wanna see baby...

tired.......

Funny

2006-08-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

What you may find funny, might not be funny to others.
What you try to make it seems funny, might turn ironic to others.
So i will nvr gloat others, unless i can help them in e matter.
Even if i gloat, i wun do it infront of others, rather behind them.
IF i do tat, means i totally dislike the person n will nvr ever do it to a friend.

I found tat i have been speaking behind pple's back alot recently.
Will correct that.
I hereby sincerely apologise to those i spoke abt.
My fault, i was carried away.
Shall shut my big gap now.

No-one in my eyes shall be spoken behind abt.
I will shun myself from this kind of conversation.
And nvr ever make another comment abt.

I came to realise.
Itz my problem.
Mine alone.
Stop whining like some fuckers do.

When i think of some like losers.
I think im becoming one too.
So hail all losers.
I will not be one whining loser like the one.

Funny, i dun find lots of things amusing anymore.

Updates

2006-08-18T17:17:00.000+08:00

Juz been thru one of my work crisis.
Lost one of e important documents.
But dunno whether itz me e one who loss it.
Anyway, mistakes done, apologies made.
So hopefully, bygones be bygones.

I have decided to give in to everything possible.
Coz thy/my love is deep, core deep.
Might say somethings painful,
Sorry nvr meant it tat way.

Saw a email today.
Interesting.
Will post it.

Tempted to change phone.
Tempted to play WoW.

Sorry can't attend friend's bday.
Sorry for pain i caused.
Sorry to baby.
Sorry for not livin my life to the fullest.

Glad i still have baby.
Glad i still can smile.
Glad of possiblities ahead.
Glad of being alive.

Need to take license.
Need to earn more money.
Need to make baby happy.
Need to be positive.

Anyway,
Here's e mail:

> > The Guys' Rules
> >
> > At last a guy has taken the time to write this all
> > down.
> > Finally, the guys' side of the story. (I must admit,
> > it's pretty good.)
> >
> > We always hear "the rules" From the female side.
> >
> > Now here are the rules from the male side.
> >
> > These are our rules!
> >
> > Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON
> > PURPOSE!
> >
> > 1. Men ARE NOT mind readers.
> >
> > 1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl.
> > If it's up, put it down
> > We need it up, you need it down You don't hear us
> > complaining about you leaving it down.
> >
> > 1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the
> > changing of the tides. Let it be.
> >
> > 1. Shopping is NOT a sport And no, we are never
> > going to think of it that way.
> >
> > 1. Crying is blackmail.
> >
> > 1. Ask for what you want.
> > Let us be clear on this one:
> > Subtle hints do not work!
> > Strong hints do not work!
> > Obvious hints do not work!
> > Just say it!
> >
> > 1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to
> > almost every question.
> >
> > 1. Come to us with a problem only If you want help
> > solving it. That's what we do.
> > Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
> >
> > 1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem.
> > See a doctor.
> >
> > 1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in
> > an argument.
> > In fact, all comments become null and void after 7
> > Days.
> >
> >
> > 1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret
> > girls,
> > don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.
> >
> > 1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't
> > ask us.
> >
> > 1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways
> > and one
> > of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the
> > other one.
> >
> > 1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us
> > how you want it done.
> > Not both.
> > If you already know best how to do it, just do it
> > yourself.
> >
> > 1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have
> > to say during commercials.
> >
> > 1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and
> > neither do we.
> >
> > 1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows
> > default settings.
> > Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin
> > is also a fruit.
> > We have no idea what mauve is.
> >
> > 1. If it itches, it will Be scratched. We do that.
> >
> > 1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing,"
> > We will act like nothing's wrong.
> > We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the
> > hassle.
> >
> > 1 . If you ask a question you don't want an answer
> > to,
> > Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
> >
> > 1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything
> > you wear Is fine...Really
> >
> > 1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you
> > are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the
> > shotgun formation, or golf.
> >
> > 1. You have enough clothes.
> >
> > 1. You have too many shoes.
> >
> > 1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
> >
> > 1. Thank you for reading this.
> > Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;
> >
> > But did you know men really don't mind that? It's
> > like camping.
> >
> > Pass this to as many men as you can - to give them a
> > laugh.
> > Pass this to as many women as you can - to give them
> > a CLUE!!!

2006-08-15T11:37:00.000+08:00

不问你为何流眼泪
不在乎你心里还有谁
请让我给你安慰
不论结局是喜是悲, 走过千山万水
在我心里你永远是那么美
既然爱了就不后悔
再多的苦
我也愿意背
我的爱如潮水
爱如潮水, 将我向你推
紧紧跟随, 爱如潮水她将你我包围

我再也不愿见你在深夜里卖醉
不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚
你该知道这样会让我心碎

答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊
不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

既然爱过就无怨无悔
再多的苦我也愿意背
我的爱如潮水
爱如潮水将我向你, 推紧紧跟随
爱如潮水她将你我包围

我再也不愿见你在深夜里卖醉
不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚
你该知道这样会让我心碎

答应我你从此不在深夜里
徘徊不再轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

我再也不愿见你在深夜里买醉
不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚
你该知道这样会让我心碎

答应我你从此不在深夜里徘徊
不再轻易尝试放纵的滋味
你可知道这样会让我心碎

Addition n Reduction of life

2006-08-15T09:34:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...
Let juz say

Reduction :
My circle of friends seems reduce to only 1-2?
Most leave a msg in MSN
Some called to say hallo
All nvr meet up at all
Maybe in time i'll forget how they look like.

My time in virtual world.
Addiction of WoW is gettin on.
But i nvr have any chance to play.
Need to work in mornin.
Go home others hog e com.

My life.
Somehow im still spittin blood in e mornin.
Haa.a..a....

Time with my baby.
Ever since i work in DLS,
We had so little time to meet up.
Ever since she work in there,
We had little time to meet up.

Sense of Belonging.
I dunno where i belong
Home seems hollow
Friends seems empty
Juz wanna immerse myself in e virtual world

Addition :
Anxiety for e safety of my girl has increased.
Am so afraid she dun know how to protect herself.
Trust is somehow running thin.
I really dislike e idea she's workin there.

Conflirts...
Addiction of WoW is a thorn among we 2.
I juz wanna play the game i love to play.
I dun have any other hobbies.
Her customers is way irritating.
Maintaining contact with her customer is makin me uneasy.

Money..
Thou i hate her job so much.
but its really increasing our overall income.
SAd but true Sad but true
Thou i really dun wan to OT so much.
But we r earning more money
Sad but true Sad but true

Life sux...
So do I....
Straws n lollipop.

I hate LIFE

Work work...

2006-08-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

Is it wrong to work so hard??

Sometimes i wonder...

100806

2006-08-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

I think i wun live long.
The amount of blood i spit out each mornin is gettin scary.

Maybe, itz becoz tat i quit smoking for 2 mnths or more.
Anyone knows the exact date i stop smokin??

080806

2006-08-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Tomolo holiday.
yippee. Cut short my workweek

Cost Estimates
Travel fee : 16 days X 4 bucks = 64
Food fee : 16 days X 8 bucks = 128

Min. i need 192 bucks to survive this month.
Ahh hahaha

As we grows older, we lose friends.
Not due to quarrels/fights, but due to time.
As we gets older, we find our other half.
We found other halves, we lose friends.

True? Kinda.

Anyway, i lost friends coz i live far away. Ah hahaha
My fault to not make e effort to travel so far.
But life is short, really dun wan to spend too much of it travelling.

Love ya my friends.
But friends r meant to loss.
And im trying my best to not loss u lot.

But pls, try not to make last min outings.

Baby, im seeing u tonite.
Can't wait for it.
We catch a movie.
i try to make u smile.
Coz as times goes by.
I found tat ur smile meant so much to me.
Pls dun care more abt other guyz than me.
It hurtz. Really.

Career.
My baby.
WoW.
Family.

My priorities.

Time passes.
So did my life.
Difference is,
My life is passing.

Wat i did with my pay

2006-08-02T09:45:00.000+08:00

Pay off a couple of bad debts.. still got a few to go (Dr. Look's, Mr Ben's, Mom's)
Paid a portion of my handphone bill..
Open an account at UOB, applied for Debit n Electron... comin in 2 wks time
Today muz buy present for dad... (after mum's GIGANTIC hint)

i think... im left with 300? or less.. muahahhaha

Things to do:
Activate UOB internet banking.
Top up Play.sg account (so shan can borrow DVD to watch)
Buy present for dad

Ironically i used up my pay even b4 it appear...

Pay Day

2006-08-01T09:04:00.000+08:00

Ironically... My pay's gone b4 it even appear... muahahahahhaha

Life sux.............

Really sux..........

ArrRRrrrrRRrr

Buddy

2006-07-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

Wat do u do when ur best buddy in ur life fell into a wormhole of alcohol n lust.
i dunno wat to do now.
Tell me wat u will do.

He blamed it on circle of friends which he has e power n right to choose frm.

He blamed it on boredom in nite which he can spend more wisely in accompany of PC games or TV.

Maybe i didn't do enough to ensure he shld not walk tat way.

It does feels like we r no longer walking in e same line of path.

Maybe i shld juz buy a "cannon" at his birthday, makes his finish it infront of his concerned buddies.
If his okay after tat, we will wash our hand of him
IF he concuss after it, he better don't ever touch anymore alcohol unnecessary.

Anyway, u urself shld know wat's best for u
Definitely not alcohol
Or those gals tat swarm to u knowing ur e big spender.
N DEFINITELY NOT THOSE SO CALLED BUDDIES OF URS TAT ENCOURAGES U TO DRINK LIKE NOBODIES BUSINESS.

WAKE UP..

Calculator

2006-07-26T11:53:00.000+08:00

"Hmmm... if u consider tat 35 hrs of OT in 7 days as quite free... then im quite free"

Slogan of the day. muahahaahahahahaha

tonight hark's music... ony left with 50 bucks to spend.. how?

Blahz...

Updates on MOVIES n my life

2006-07-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

Movie updates :
Superman Returns <-- predictable plot
Re-cycle <-- Totally cannot make it
Pirates of Carribean <-- superb awesome.. muz watch in DIG.

Movies to come:
Long Hu Meng
Stay Alive
PoC part 3 ( hopefully comes out fast)
King and e clown
Nacho Libre

Events update:
Been to shan's singing competition at hark's music, she was awesome..
Caught POC dead man's chest with shan n ben at Shaw tower at sat nite.
Went for coffee session with shan, han, ben, st, james, jj last nite.. Had a great chitchat session.

Wrking wrking wrking
OT OT Ot... lolz...

Horror

2006-07-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

11.7.06
To my utmost horror, my ns allwcne is claimed to be paid by SAF!!!

damn...
19 more days till i can find my money to survive...
LoLz...

"Living in days of poverty"
19 days to pay day (i think)

1st wk

2006-07-08T18:17:00.000+08:00

hmm... been a week akready. quite fast... now am at yishan's hse..

tonite going over jj's hse, but dunno how to go.. lol..

abt my job... itz altogether taxing.. but very interesting n fun. coz its something tat i nvr did in my whole life... so in a way.. itz fun.

Costing is in my Blood now!!!! wakakaka

ben.. i still owe u a treat

First Job

2006-06-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

Got a call from someone....

Yippie... got my first job le... DLs.. same company as ben... Thanks ben for e intro....
Said will call me back regarding e pay...
Either start work monday or tuesday....
Sounds like fun Charlie~

Must treat someday soon....

2nd job interview

2006-06-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

Had my second promising interview yesterday.. at DLS..
Thanks to ben for the intro. Owe u a treat =P
Well... at the end of the interview they/she said tat they will contact me latest by nxt wk..
So looking forward to it... even if they doesn't wanna employ me, i hope they will at least give me a call..
Need to plan for interviews again..
Coz rite now i really dunno wat mindset to bring to my subsequent interviews ya.

Miss my interview today... kinda sian
How i miss it? i ask the person to set it to friday,
then tat goondu set it thursday.. which is today.
Somemore today my hp went bonkers.
So can kiss goodbye to that le (both e phone n the interview)....

My nxt target phone. N80!! or W950!!

My family wans to buy a car.. my dad's aiming for a FITZ or GETZ.. but too bad.. no guarantor.. so can wait for me to find a job n work for at least 3 mnths then can buy car...
HahaHaAHAhaHAHAHahahaha....

Friend-ship

2006-06-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

ok. how to phase this...

My girl find tat the way i communicate with my friends are weird.
I kinda agree.
Found it weird too.
Why this way?

Facts:
Im poor.
Got pride.
Thinks too much.
Don't like to go hard to reach places.
Direction-Disorientated.
Pays adult fare.
Jobless.
Don't demand a trip n trying very hard to put tat across

Yay, thats the way i am.
So somehow i earn my immunity,
To be anti-social.
I know i deserved it.
So im learning to enjoy it.

Baby... am still missing you...

blown

2006-06-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

I think my interview's blown.
Wakakakakaka
The boss is like so uninterested...

"Contact u another day" <-- Marked of Death? most likely

But the job is so fun... u will do everything in events. from start to end..

Flow of Work:
Calling potential cilents
Presenting of ideas/concept
Setting e event
Co-ordinating e event
Close deal.

lol.. sounds like fun... but most likely not getting in

Interview.. tomolo? today she flew

2006-06-05T17:06:00.000+08:00

Today i received my first 'OFFICIAL' call from a company.
Content?
Tomorrow go interview can?
lol... kinda rush. i was kinda stumped at e moment, but finally mumbled out the answer... Sure! No Problem!

HAahahaha

I'm really very nervous now... shit shit shit shit shit

Shld i really wear shirt n pants? SHLD i??!?! Reluctant.

Wat shld i bring there.... Not possibly juz myself rite... my dip? totally not relevant.

Help me~~~!!!

Baby... i miss u already...

2006-06-04T16:04:00.000+08:00

why is she angry again?

been out this few days, pacifying her this few days.

feeling sick today, didn't tell her. Reluctant to go out. My fault?

u have ur aunt's emotion to wary about. i dun need to wary about my mum's?

wat did i do wrong this time? By not replying a sms tat she says dun need to meet her?

If wans to me to go down n meet, juz say so. Don't expect i whipped up a surprise everytime.

Don't u find urself getting more n more demanding? more unreasonable? more not understanding?

i find ur getting very easily irritated by stuff i did or didn't did.
ur having more reasons to be unhappy at least once every 2-3 days.

wat did i do wrong this time?
im not a perfect bf.
Im really feeling very sick today. feel like puking. brain can't function properly. have headache.
wat did i do wrong today?
Maybe im juz wrong to feel sick today.

2006-06-04T13:23:00.000+08:00

光透進來　把夢刷白

捨不得妳會醒過來

不要現在　昨夜走太快　wo

說不上來　隱隱燙在胸口一塊

吻妳臉頰　證明此刻真的存在

是妳　讓我相信愛　對我慷慨　yeah ho　

是愛　我們是註定　不是意外＊

這是愛　我們的愛　

還不確定卻好實在　

把妳貼在胸懷　靜靜的　

代替表白　還不願放開　

這是愛　給妳的愛　

沒名字卻停不下來　

在忐忑裡期待　

雀躍中想到未來　

是妳　我才明白　

這就是愛

但夢還在　

小心不讓妳醒過來也許現在　

就是永恆的未來　

是妳　讓我相信愛　對我慷慨　yeah ho　
是愛　我們是註定　不是意外＊
這是愛　我們的愛　
還不確定卻好實在　
把妳貼在胸懷　靜靜的　
代替表白　還不願放開　
這是愛　給妳的愛　
沒名字卻停不下來　
在忐忑裡期待　
雀躍中想到未來　
是妳　我才明白　
這就是愛

＃第一個我們的清晨比默契更私密的　無限可能言語都顯得太浮淺

First Interview

2006-06-01T11:04:00.000+08:00

On 1st JUNE 11.00am, i received my first notice for an interview! hippee...
Well... see below.. lolz
_______________________
Dear Anthony, i have received your resume. We will contact you for an interview next week. For more info about our company, pls visit our website : www.desd**l.com.sg. (note: office in ***, too far for you?)
Ms L
----- Original Message -----
From: "anthony tan" <elpicsio@hotmail.com>
To: *****@singnet.com.sg
Sent: Thursday, June 01, 2006 8:28 AM
Subject: Application to Event Marketing Executive

Hi Miss L****,
above attached is my resume for the Event Marketing Executive you have posted on jobseek.com.sg Although i have no relevant dip/cert for events, but im most willing to learn and gain experience if you give me a chance.
Regards, Anthony
__________________________
Sorry abt the censor part.. kinda personal for e company n me.. lol...

although happy, but im certainly so nervous about it.. seems like forever since i last felt this way

Dunno wat to wear for my incoming interview (if there is). My going-to-be-Sis-in-law insisted on me wearing Proper Shirt AND Pants. Jeesh, my top most unwanted criminal.

Hopefully they contact me quick.. hehe

A new start....

2006-05-30T15:24:00.000+08:00

A new start.....

Hello world, been awhile since i was missing from here. Miss me? i do miss your lots =P

Today i send my first resume thru the internet. Kinda worried tat my resume is a half fucked one in e eyes of professional. Watever, fuck it. Nvr try Nvr know. lolz.

I put a photo tat was very randomly taken in one of e regular date with my baby, kinda sloppy but itz at least more innovative rite?
Give me some CREDITs for tat ya. wakakaakaka

Ording in 2 wks time... Happy? VEry.. Sad? Kinda... coz jobless!!!!

Hmmm... sometimes i wonder if i really have friends.. lolz... my loaned PS 2 is my buddy now... FFS!

now back to doing laundry n playing PS 2.... tonight hopefully got the guts to ask my bro to vett thru my resume n questions like difference between resume and applications..

(Baby, like i promise.. i will start writting blog the moment i send my resume... =-P Love u lots)

PARADING PARA PARADE

2006-04-05T08:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... Kel gave me a good blog title to start with for today.

Think of wat to do when i ORD.

First thing first.. go n get my dip from my poly.

Hmm... study seems like a option, but i dun think i or my family can afford it. Even if i does wan to study, course of study would be a tough choice. Maybe management studies in SIM or event management in any sch.

Working is the more relevant option now. But working as wat ne? totally no fr3aking idea. Job in mind is event co-ord/planner, but chances seems to be closing in on me.
Wat else can i work as.. a mechanical eng? but my color deficiences might be a big obstacle. Product designing? same bloody problem.

So here comes the conclusion.
Buy the newspaper n look at the jobs column... Pathetic.. but the only way.. aaarRrrr hahaha

back n again

2006-04-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

Baby Goldfish complaining tat i nvr blog for so long... think she's the only 1 tat ever read my blog. hehe.. so here goes something, everything, or nothing.

Watch ICE AGE 2 with baby last evening, was kinda worth watching as a cartoon but not altogether a nice film.

Hmm... Clearing leave in like 2 more weeks (but still need to come back to camp a few days in april n first week of may). Irritatin, but im still patiently waiting for the time to be up.

Dr look has been gone for a wk or so. No more chionging/going-out/talk-cock/sing-song/do-nothing/aracde/movie/everything-i-can-think-of kaki for 1 mnth. Imagine if its like 1 yr.. hiakz hiakz.

Feeling kinda emotional right now.. dunno what to do. lost for words. Camp is still as fucked up. hmmm... i think i shld start loading photos to my blog le.....

Movie review

2006-03-07T01:08:00.000+08:00

Movie Review Post

Underworld Revolution ==== Fantastic!!!

Wolf Creed ==== doesn't matter if u go into the cinema 1 n a half hrs late.

Final Destination ==== Irritating show viewing all the pple gettin killed.

Pink Panther === Entertaining show... Enjoyable...

Walk the Line ==== SPARE ME~~ it's too god damned long n boring~!! country FOLK RoCkS~

HuoYuanJia ==== Somehow predictable normal story plot.

Me n Shannie aka Vivian aka Shan aka so-fore n so-on

we had our ups n downs this few days, due to her poly enlisting, aunt being back in town n my god damned short temper on things. But things are working out fine for now. Meeting her for a movie today after work, and going with her for her appealin at TP 2morow. Hope things goes out fine later (means she get enlisted). I look up a few dip courses she might be interested in, but doesn't knows whether her dad will allow her to study? Anyone can intro any psycho courses or child care courses for dip? will gladly appreciate it.

Me n Xiongdi's

Most of them r gone oversea now, n more will be going. Kel n ST in aust, Han going TW soon. Feelin kinda lonely. Might need to hang out with other friends le.. HUO LONELY WOR!! shan will miss ur bunch lots ya.. she juz loves hanging out with your, juz as much as me ya. HAiZzzZZzz.....

3 more Mnths to Get the HeLL out oF the ShiThoLe

BCS shit

2006-02-28T20:10:00.000+08:00

Today's TUESDAY, fucked up day. 4 person set up a BCS tent juz to tear it down later at the day. SET UP for wat? for a person call CMC.. To hell with him.

Quarrel with shan last nite, bcoz of wat?
bcoz she told me today can't meet up bcoz her grandma is coming to singapore.
Then i reply her ok.
Then she say i like bo hiew like tat.
THEN i reply i hiew also no use, itz bcoz i dun have a choice also.
THEN she self assume i dun wanna talk to her n start PMSing the whole day, when i was busy at camp for the rest of the day.

I finally SNAPPED n call n scold her at nite. She say she doesn't wan me to make overseas call juz to scold her, so i juz go n slp lo. THEN SHE PMS FURTHER.

Seriously, i think shan deserve the scoldin im gonna give her. She always assume things n put words into my mouth. I can't pacify u everytime, Grow up n understand tat

Happy yet SUAY day

2006-02-22T06:58:00.000+08:00

Today ops duty at SMM, need to stay over... Shan came down to camp me accompany me for dinner. Somemore she bought something for me when she's at Queensway when accompanying sherly for her opt. Was very delighted abt it, knows she loves me alot, n i love her alot too.

Tat's the happy part.

SUAY part is i lost the shirt she bought, n we both don't remember where we misplace it. When i went back to the coffeeshop where we had our dinner, the uncle whose behaving quite supiciously proclaims i took the bag with me when i went off (the younger chap gave him away initially). Curses to him! hope he or whoever he gave the shirt to fucking rots when he/she wears my shirt!

Cliff came to took his pink IC today, so jealous n envy. When is it ever my turn to see my "long lost friend". Day passes by n minutes runs down, but the date of my release still seems so fucking far away. Kinda pissed off by tat.

Baby girl, im so sorry to lose the shirt ya. Damn the bloody bastard who took it. We will go buy another set ok?

Baby,
Btw, it feels so fortunate to be able to wake up in the morning and see u lying beside me. Thou the bed is quite crampy, things will go for the better ya.

Time to sleep n time to be the stoner of the day.

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Fisherman Village

2006-02-18T17:52:00.003+08:00

Met Sherly (shan's best friend) with shan at cine today. Catch the Show PINK PANTHER at around 5.30 pm, find it quite entertaining ya.

After the show, went down to MS to meet han for dinner at the FC ya. Sherly went home at this time. Quite a mood spoiler. Talk abt the gay show BrokeBack Mountain, han n me had a gd laugh abt it, n agrees we wun SEE the movie no matter wat. Proceed to Meet Kel N Ed after the dinner.

Went to Fisherman Village at Pasir ris last nite with Han, Ben, Kel, Ed & Shan Last nite. The atmosphere is great, weather is fine (windy). Drank a Couple of Beer with them. Enjoyable nite.

Anniversary?

2006-02-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

I know why im so angry over.
Waited up the whole nite for her, while she's clubbing away.
Came to my house at around 4 am.
She shld know tat im workin on the followin day.
Give me a reason, saying tat she can't leave becoz they go as a grp.
Din even bother to apologise.
Went off to camp much earlier then usual, as i find it no point to sleep n wanted her to get some rest.
Now she don't even bother abt smsing me abt whether she's home or not, maybe she's sleepin maybe she's not.
Planned to go out with her tonite, but now, im too tired to go out.
Tomorrow has Muster Parade, a stupid stunt tat cheebye lim last minute put up.
Which means i can't take off on friday.
Things r really going in the wrong way for me today.
I hate the feelin, pissed off abt it.

4 more Mnths to Get the HeLL out oF the ShiThoLe

Compilation of the Weekend to Tuesday

2006-02-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

Spend my whole wkend at chalet organized by Hancheng, Ben, Jj n etc. It was fun through out though i had a small tiff with shan at friday.
Taught shan abit of mahjong, sorry if im being a harsh teacher. But tat's juz the way i am. Sorry.
Play abit of Xbox n PS2 which han brought.

Despite being in the chalet, me shan han n james still went dbl O on sat nite.
It was a rush n fun clubbin experience.
Due to the fact we reach at 12midnite n need to go back chalet at 3. The Following R a few Stunts n things we or i pull off n mention:

I cut the long queue coz i know the doorBiatch personally.
I had 2 shots of waterfall once i step in the club.
James DRINK to his fill at the last hr of clubbin. N got very fuckin drunk
Lian got DRUNK again.
Sorry dear, i left u alone a few times at the table. very sorry.
i got my usual motion sickness n puke.

oh ya, i met jackie at the club also (we did jio each other to go). N thanks for the drinks ya~

Monday

shan Bought W900i for me this day, think i/she got scam, dun wanna mention it.. haiz.. nvm..

Tuesday V.day

Sorry baby, din spend this day with u. But i truly understand n agrees wat kelvin mention in his blog. V day shld be celebrated on the rest of the 364 days but not this day, i know u understand n agree to it too. But im still feelin kinda sorry if today really mean something to u ya. Love u lots ya

Tired?

2006-02-11T12:48:00.000+08:00

What do u do when u know ur gf can't find a safe haven in u?
What do i do when she said im juz pressurizing her?
What shld i do whenever i feel this tired feelin inside of me?
What would i do when the future with her is so uncertain?
What could i do when she dunno how much i love her after all this time?

I shld juz give it all up, I din wan to control you, nvr meant to control you. You nvr understand how i feel. Since your so tensed up n unhappy being with me. i guess it's time for u to find ur safe haven n someone who u can be at ease at.

I guess im not the one.

"O" day

2006-02-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

Wednesday 080206

Trip at Zoo for Unit day was boring. Only interesting part is Muscular white tiger and Gigantic Crocodile. Their SIZE kinda freak me out.
Meet Shan after zoo at her house, spend some time with her niece, then move out to marina sq.

Had sakae for dinner at marina sq. Had me n han usual Value Meal (Gyoza & Fried Tofu + Tamako Maki). Soft shell Crab is confirmed not my cup of tea.

Went to party world with Shan, Han and Feelin to Party World in Cuppage at 2100 nite. Itz quite a fun night, sing alot of songs till my voice goes haywired. Though i was not a gd singer compared to shan's x bf, but i tried my best ok!! Was fun watchin feelin pissing off han by pesterin him to sing. lol. Shan did her usual performance at the later part of the session, she still can sing as marvelous as b4.

Thursday 090206

Spend my whole day at home with Shan as i was sick. Watch a bit of Wubai's concert and find it enjoyable. Will finish the whole 2 dvd some other day.

Today 100206

Shan's big day. Hope she will pass ya. Dun wan her to go back TW ya. Muz be confident. Anyway, don't worry too much. I'll be here ya. Sorry i can't go pick u up at the school.

Tomolo & the day after n after ??????

Unknown.

4 more Mnths to Get the HeLL out oF the ShiThoLe

一生绝望

2006-02-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

Anyone whose lookin at this blog.. got take a look at this webby.. the song is very nice... link to us when we r at secondary sec..
Title : 一生绝望
http://www.mediacorpraintree.com/instoo/main_instoo.htm

the lyrics is at

http://www.inotstupid.com.sg/inotstupid2/

She's BACK

2006-02-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

I, me, myself and anthony went to airport to fetch shan today.

Items Shan Bought:
Johnny Walker Red Label for me~ YeaH~~~ .
the Wu bai's Concert MTV for my mum (which is hard to get in singapore).
Iron EGGS for our DEAR MR LOOK HOR SING.

Had lunch n movie "fun with dick n jane" with her. quite a boring show for me, but she finds it kinda entertaining (as long as she likes it can le). Lunch was a total rip off!! din notice b4 tat mos burger is such a rip off... lolz.. one upsized set meal plus 1 extra veg burger can hit S$12 plus plus, fuckin scary man... Tomolo is Zoo day at unit.. damn boring.. hope it ends real soon.

She wanted to change her phone, but wants me to change also, or else she's not changing. Hmmm.. wat to do leh... Both dun change.. lolz..

I still need recommendations for V.day cum 1yr anni. present, any intro??

4 more Mnths to Get the HeLL out oF the ShiThoLe

New start

2006-02-06T17:20:00.000+08:00

Borin day at camp. So decided to get a new skin for this new blogspot. well.. the theme for this skin is "black black heart" by david usher. Shan n me likes this song alot (she prefer the chinese version i guess). im learning how to edit the blog as i goes ya, muz revise on my C++ programmin.. if it helps in aniway. ORD date is 3 mnths from now, muz start plannin on gettin the job i desired le. Shan is comin back tomolo, Unit havin FAMILY DAY at zoological gardens at wednesday n there's a chalet (which i dunno whether im invited or not) at sat.

Went to dbl o with han last sat. Whole table full of pple(20+?). With most of them guys, in fact, all of them r guyz. lolz.

Status Report:
Han was not at the table most of the time.
i was dancing with James all of the time.
Tiong was high all of the time.
Lian was sleepin majority of the time.
Jenny was taking care of lian ALL of the time

And all the guyz are DRINKING all of the Time.
Hmmm.. i think that's all for now. Seeya

4 more Mnths to Get the HeLL out oF the ShiThoLe

James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

2006-02-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.I
've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

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Unseen, Unknown, Unidentified

aloha since 8 mnths

faces

030907

hm..

永远的恋人

痛

120707

Some times

puke

我以为 - 李圣杰

July

270607

230607 @ 3:38AM

mundane day

不顾一切的爱

wootz

Sick

dead

110607

不屑纪念

Busy Life?

眼底星空

75

背叛

爱

Replica Nitemares

Confession of a sinner

一顆蘋果

永遠的永遠

Blues

Settin of one side.

Bon Voyage

Watever.

Lost.

17"

Game's on!

Wrong somewhere

women

PainZ

PAiN

2007

xmas comin

GF.

GF.

141106

Laws of Attraction

枯萎

countdown [1 -> 0]

斩月。 说过的话

hybrid theory

给宝宝

Awful START

WwwEeee whiners

Day infinite

Funny

Updates

Addition n Reduction of life

Work work...

100806

080806

Wat i did with my pay

Pay Day

Buddy

Calculator

Updates on MOVIES n my life

Horror

1st wk

First Job

2nd job interview

Friend-ship

blown

Interview.. tomolo? today she flew

First Interview

A new start....

PARADING PARA PARADE

back n again

Movie review

BCS shit

Happy yet SUAY day

斩月。说过的话